Stressed

**TAKES A DEEP BREATH**

So...here it goes. I'm very concerned about not being able to graduate next week. I've had a very rough term this spring and took on a bit more than I could handle (namely, four courses that require more of my time than I had to spare). I'll also admit that I'm burnt out from school in general after all this time and keeping focused has been a major issue for me this term as well. As a result, I'm very close to not getting, at the very least, a C in two of my major requirement courses where a C is required for the credits to count towards the degree. If I don't pull the required grade, not only will I have to retake the courses, but I won't be permitted to walk in the graduation ceremony next Saturday and will have to scrape up another $3,136 to pay for them again.

Also, let's not forget that if I have to retake them, they aren't offered until Spring term 2010 when I will have an infant at home to care for. All I want to do after the baby comes is enjoy having some downtime for once and finally get to spend some much needed time with my family. I don't want to have to worry about school anymore. It's already cut drastically into the time Mike and I have had to spend together over the past 2.5 years of our marriage. I simply don't want to have to make that sacrifice anymore - at least not for a few more years when I'd like to eventually go back for graduate school. At the same time, I've come this far in attaining my degree and it would be absolutely ridiculous to be 6 credits shy and not finish.

Mike just keeps trying to tell me that everything will work out as it always does, but I, unfortunately, don't quite share those positive sentiments. I've got a rough road ahead of me for the next week and a half, and the pressure is piling on. To add insult to injury, this has been a difficult week for me thus far with pregnancy since I've been extremely nauseous, let alone utterly exhausted to the point of feeling very sick, since Monday. With everything going on and being as stressed as I am, I'm very worried about putting so much stress on the baby which only perpetuates the vicious cycle of worrying.

Thank God for husbands who have more faith in us than we do of ourselves.